A Binary Day

Off to work I go with a smile on my face,
Mosey on down to my mildly warm office space.
Turn on my computer and start pressing the keys,
Writing my code with the slightest of ease.
On i go with my fingers turning numb,
This slow ass computer sure does act dumb.
"Almost done" I thought as select it to be compiled,
Then found a thousand errors. I thought I just died.
Scrolling across the screen looking line by line,
Trying to stay sane because I fear I have lost my mind.
Low and beyond, much to my dismay,
I messed up my code because I forgot the letter "a."

Shattered

Crack. Crash. Boom. Trickle.
The sound my glass heart makes after fooling around with you.
You said you were different and called me your best friend,
But I guess being different didn't help me out in the end.
I unlocked all my doors and gave you all the keys,
You were able to move about as you pleased.
Did I not realize or was I too blind to tell,
That those lips weren't from heaven but rather from hell.
Down the spiral stairs I go to that small little room,
I open the door reach inside and pull out a broom.
I'm sweeping up these pieces, every tiny shard,
Hoping someday I will find another broad.
Someone who has passion like fire and is sweet like a tart,
That can melt these sand like shards into one glass heart.

Too late?

Hindsight is always 20/20
That's what people say. You realize things could have been different but it is already too late. You know it can get better but to spend the rest of your time, energy, and life waiting for that chance that might not happen is pointless. Things that are meant to be, will be.

“If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.”

Things tend to work in awkward ways. What you think might be good today may turn out to be bad tomorrow and vice versa. I found this to be true on many occasions. But knowing what to do and doing it are two different things!

“Moving on, is a simple thing, what it leaves behind is hard.”

The memories and thoughts that cross your mind can be very powerful. They tend to be enough to pull you back. Return you to the spot from which you just left. Making it difficult to continue forward toward the path you are yearning for. If you don't do what is necessary, you will only place more pain and sorrow upon yourself.

"The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have."

It's normal to have dreams and it is okay to want to have something that you cannot have but you cannot allow your life to goto waste simply because you want what you can't have! More so than not, there is someone out there who obtainable and probably better than the person you were originally going after to begin with.

“Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.”

Love is a choice. There's that "in love" feeling that is blinding and that's great but that seldom lasts forever. The true love beings when each person takes the time to truly get to understand the other and makes a decision that says, "I am going to be with this person till the end." Once you get to know that person and you truly care about that person, your souls begin to merge as one. That's love...at least to me anyways.

“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”

It might be too late for the now but it's not too late for the future...

GW|dub|

Life! Never Ceases to Amaze Me!

Everyday, life seems to give me something new. I always try to expect the unexpected but life still catches me off guard. I try so hard to rationalize thins that are irrational like Love. One cannot try to rational Love. I know what qualities that I seek in a woman. But I am not searching. I like having friends. I love to help others and be there for other people. I love making people smile and be happy and in return, it makes me smile and brings joy unto my life. I don't expect anything in return. However, there is always something that will catch you off guard. I was not expecting to fall for anyone right now. I was expecting to add another friend to my "collection" of friends. From the beginning we clicked and that was awesome. Now we are best friends and I love that. I always put friendship first. ALWAYS!! And I have never ended a relationship and not be friends with that person. But what does this mean?


It means that I believe you cannot predict what is going to happen when you meet someone and you cannot predict the outcome of becoming involved with someone. That is why I believe you should be friends first and then date. When you are friends first, there isn't that pressure of trying to see if he/she will like you for you. You can be REAL!! They already know how you act, and who you are. They same goes for you!

The only problem is the risk involved. Is it worth losing a friendship over?
My response to that is, "If you keep friendship first, you won't lose you friendship if anything happens!!"
What do you think?

Be Frank

Time and time again, I find myself in situations where people rather beat around the bush or try to use a lot of nice words to hint what they truly mean. OR, my favorite, they just don't say anything and expect you to know. Why go through such lengths to tell someone how you feel or what you think. It will come out at some point. By dragging it out, nothing good will come of it and it usually makes things worse.

Emotional Attraction

Sometimes you meet someone that makes you feel like "Something always brings me back to you." What you have to do is find out why that's the case. Is it a bad thing? Is it something that you want? What is it about this person that makes me feel this way? Is this what I want? Sometimes we find ourselves scared and confused and instead of confronting these issues, feelings, and emotions, we run away or try to ignore them thinking, "If I don't do anything about it/ If I ignore it it will go away!" Well, it won't. It might disappear for a while but it will come back and you will be back at square one or worse, square zero! Once you have confronted these feelings and attractions, you will find out that everything makes sense and the confusion goes away. It's usually easier to confront these than to ignore them although wouldn't agree. This is why it is easier. If you ignore them, you get a short break and feel like everything is ok but when the break is over, you have to deal with it again, and again, and again.... it just keeps repeating itself. Does that sound like it is easier now?

Selfishness and selflessness

You can't be selfish and expect to have a long, serious, and real relationship. A real relationship requires you to be selfless but not to the point where you lose yourself. You have to be open and open yourself up to the other person. Don't get me wrong, you have to have a point in your life when it is all about you, however, don't expect to have a meaningful relationship..